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mood:  Bananuts music: Banana Phone
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Didn't like the old friends only bit, so this here is a facelift. You know the drill. Post, and you're basically a friend after that.
Enjoy the excitment that is my life. |
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| 12:18am 15/09/2009 |
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music: Vanilla Ice - too cold
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i love jen. We went to manson... she looks better then ever. I miss her... being able to hold her, kiss her, to love her in every way possible. I want us back. It kills me to know she is with another guy. This hurt won't go away until we are back together... and even then I'm not so sure.
I love Jen. I always will. I can't change how i feel. I hope she's happier with how things are right now. I want to win her back.
I need to move on to though. It's hard. Hopefully the date coming up will help. I could use it. I know it won't change how i feel though, just mask my true feelings. I suppose that will always be better then nothing |
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| 11:55pm 25/10/2008 |
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music: slipknot - psychosocial
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It's been about a week later from a day Jen said, "...if we're fighting the day before, you can go." Feels like she got here wish.
When is a relationship no longer worth it?
I find myself struggling with that a lot. I want nothing more then to be with her, and yet I seems to acomplish nothing. Most things she had complained about in me, I'm very aware are in her. I feel I had a hand in that. We've both changed into people we aren't and hate. She just better expresses it. Today I found myself thinking that I should just end it. I don't want all this drama. Get it over with. There can be another chance... but at the same time that feels like admitting defeat. I feel that's part of the problem I face.
Incite change, and fail.. make things worse.
Affect no change, things stay the same. Things stagnate,still bad.
I feel like I'm finally realizing who I am and naturally a 24/7 shit parade comes along with it. No matter how on the right track I may be for myself, it can't be the same for everyone. That's yet another issue I feel bearing down on me. Because I'm realizing subjective things, everyone else wants,nay, requires it to be objectiive. It's the only way for others to experience what I am doing, and it seems an impossibility.
I feel better remembering I have lj to word vomit. I feel better knowing there our friends out there to understand/help. I feel better being able to express myself, something I was exceptional at insofar as at least typing my thoughts out are concerned.
I love you Jen.
I will fix things.
I will get my shit together so you can get yours.
I must shit or get off the pot.
...otherwise, I don't know.
Maybe I have been a lost cause. Perhaps that's why I've experienced such a jaded view of the world and ended up being as laid back as I am. Easier to be indifferent to life then to experience yet another blatant slap in the face of realities constant injustice.
That "emo line" I gave long ago seems to be hitting home now.
"I hope tomorow doesn't suck as much as today" |
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| belated living |
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| 07:19pm 26/09/2008 |
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I'm still alive. Just had my last day in forestry.. or rather it was a week ago.
Got new wheels finally. Who would have expected me to get a jetta... never heard of wolfsburg edition though... doesn't seem to exist, meh.
I'm still awesome. |
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| off with a fucked up bang |
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| 10:17am 01/01/2008 |
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music: Korn - Freak on a Leash
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This has already been the most memorable new year ever...
and very much not in a good way and far from good reasons.
Malanka is coming up... it may become mynew years mulligan |
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| 09:26pm 10/12/2007 |
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why do they call it purple nurple and not pipple nipple? |
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| gwar and beyond |
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| 06:48pm 14/11/2007 |
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GWAR WAS FUCKING AWESOME!!!!
Chimara in a week! |
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| Friday |
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| 07:00pm 26/10/2007 |
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mood:  stressed
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Just feel so stressed right now.
Think I will talk to Jake about that too. |
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| 07:44pm 18/10/2007 |
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mood: awesome music: grinspoon - truk
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Lessee here... going to GWAR in November. Going to be awesome as always.
On Tuesday I saw Kerry Burtnyk and got my broom signed.
Due for a new phone/contract too. Pondering swaping to telus.
Still have yet to get a copy of the pic with goatwhore. |
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| Roller Coasters of Un-Fun |
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| 09:59pm 24/08/2007 |
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mood:  sad music: Red Seed - the Lines Between Us
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So went to see Red Seed Thursday.
A group of guys I've known for about as long as they've been a band. Worked with all of them (Minus Jeff) at the Chamois.
In any case noticed 2 members missing.
Where's Rick and Curtis?
Rick's up North.
.... Curtis is dead...
.... and died on Rick's Wedding.
Yeah. That's a huge shock.
Apaprently there shall be a Tribute show and I aim to be there. |
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| 08:19pm 04/07/2007 |
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music: Cannibal Corpse - The Bleeding
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So for those of you who haven't heard already... Jen and I have broken up.
I'm in counselling now.
And the prospect of getting back together remains strong.
And I'm Going to CANNIBAL CORPSE |
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| 4/20 |
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| 07:25pm 21/04/2007 |
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mood:  calm music: Lamb of God - Laid to Rest
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That was a great 4/20 |
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| ...but you already knew this |
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| 06:26pm 28/01/2007 |
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| Your Geek Profile: | 
Gamer Geekiness: Highest
Music Geekiness: High
SciFi Geekiness: High
Fashion Geekiness: Moderate
Geekiness in Love: Moderate
Academic Geekiness: Low
General Geekiness: Low
Movie Geekiness: Low
Internet Geekiness: None |
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| It's xmas... times 2 |
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| 09:54pm 25/12/2006 |
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music: Tenacious D - Wonderboy
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Murry Chrimus to all.
Ok so it's xmas, and the 2 weeks of it or so for me begins. Had baba over yesterday and went to Jen's xmas thing in Tyndall. At her place today for xmas dinner. Going to my uncles tommorow for xmas dinner again. And then there's Ukrainian xmas in January. New years and Malanka need not apply, but are factored into the calculation.
P.S. Now I'm a guitar HERO.
...So in other words a happy Festivus for the rest of us
Oh yeah, still no net at home, BUT, going to class again in Januaryso I'll probably be able to snag some free net again. |
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| 12:34pm 03/11/2006 |
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Halloween, what a fucking day.
It all starts around 1am, I'm on my way home from Jen's. My car is shaking, but only when I hit the gas... eventually it just shakes all the time. I stop right before the overpass on lagimodiere to get to regent. *SHUNK* My drive shaft falls out. Luckily I suppose a tow truck comes by and my dad has come to snag me. I eventually get home at 3am. I wake up at 7 since I am supposed to work at 8, my dad says I can take the impala... no problem. Or so I thought. I get ready to go to work and wouldn't you know it, no key for the club on it. Now I am going to be late so I call work to let them know. I ended up putting my BMX together and biked to work. FAst forward to about 30 minutes before I am to go home. I'm vacuuming a van and the manager and another guy are throwing snowballs at me. I keep working. Eventually I decide to knock a pile of snow from the top of the van onto the manager and then go back to work. He throws a snowball at me through the van. I make a quick snowball and go to throw it... *SMASH* ... my hand goes through a light bulb, full tilt. I drop to look at a flap of skin and some non stop bleeding.
11:40 I've gone to Concordia Hospital and just had the paper work done and start my wait. About an hour and a half later I get to the suture room where I'm told to remove my dressing since the doctor will want to see it. Well, after waiting for close to 2 hours in the waiting room I'm reluctant to do that, but I do start to take a little bit of it off. An hour later in he comes. Kinda see why hospitals are so depressing when I kept seeing the guy that was to eventually help me walk by 6 or so times. Anyway, 7 shots of freezing later I'm finally getting stitched up. And now I can see it was 4 stitches, I can claim 5 though.
To top it off Leprechaun was supposed to be on, but wasn't.
So now I can't work for a week minimally and it's just expenses overload it seems. I'll be happy when I can look back on this, then I know it will be over. |
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| FACT!!!! |
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| 04:57pm 04/08/2006 |
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It rained oil on me Thursday.
Glad to see planes are in fine working order. |
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| SLAYER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| 10:52pm 14/07/2006 |
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music: Lamb of God - Hourglass
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So slayer fucking rocked.
That was a solid circle pit too. Been a while since I've been in one that big, it was great.
The merch blew. I went in going, Iwant to be gouged.. and I couldn't. There wasn't anything worth being gouged for.
I also saw an ass-load of people I knew. Lesse here, Destiny and her Beau. Pan Roman, who totally has better stuff. The boys I was with. Hell, I saw Liz for the first time. I was actually shocked I recognized her... I also found out I'm not going to hear her band play... oh well. I lost out there.
Children and Lamb of God made my day. Still a little bitter I missed mastodon. Ireally wanted to see them. |
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| Saturday |
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| 08:21pm 08/07/2006 |
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music: Slayer - Dittohead
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World cup action to happen tomorow.
France to beat Italy... again..just like in '98. I hate when actors play soccer... anyway, more importantly...
SLAYER
Who's on the floor... I'll see you there. |
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| 07:50pm 17/06/2006 |
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Mark with X's the bands that you listen to. Be honest.
RADIO ROCK
[X ] Nickelback
[X] Disturbed
[ ] Shinedown
[X] Seether
[X] Sevendust
[X] System of a Down
[X] Flyleaf
[X] Staind
[x] Drowning Pool
[ ] Taproot
[X] Mudvayne
[ ] Audioslave
[ ] Trapt
[X] KoRn
[X] Three Days Grace
[ ] Evans Blue
[X] Godsmack
TOTAL = 12
COUNTRY
[ ] Rascal Flatts
[ ] Carrie Underwood
[ ] Leanne Rhymes
[ ] Garth Brooks
[ ] Dixie Chicks
[ ] Kenny Cheney
[ ] Tim McGraw
[ ] Faith Hill
[ ] Hank Williams Jr.
[X] Shania Twain
[ ] Johnny Cash
[ ] Willie Nelson
[ ] Merle Haggard
[ ] Hank Williams
[ ] The Wreckers
TOTAL = 1
PSYCHOBILLY
[ ] Nekromantix
[ ] Tiger Army
[X] HorrorPops
[ ] The Cramps
[ ] Mad Sin
[ ] The Meteors
[ ] Reverend Horton Heat
[ ] Demented Are Go!
[ ] Batmobile
[ ] Guana Batz
[ ] The Gun Club
[ ] Klingonz
[ ] Hellbillys
[ ] The Phnomenauts
TOTAL = 1
POP
[ ] Teddy Geiger
[ ] Ashlee Simpson
[ ] Kelly Clarkson
[ ] Madonna
[X] Avril Lavigne
[ ] Pink
[ ] The Veronicas
[ ] Daniel Powter
[ ] James Blunt
[ ] Natasha Bedingfield
[ ] Ryan Cabrera
TOTAL = 1
EMO
[ ] Hawthorne heights
[ ] Halifax
[ ] Fightstar
[ ] Taking Back Sunday
[ ] Forgive Durden
[ ] From First To Last
[ ] Senses Fail
[ ] Something Corporate
[ ] Hit The Lights
[ ] Dashboard Confessional
[ ] Dear Whoever
[ ] Funeral For A Friend
[X] Silverstein
[X] The Used
[ ] The Spill Canvas
TOTAL = 2
ORIGINAL EMO
[ ] Circle Takes the Square
[ ] Dag Nasty
[ ] Rites of Spring
[ ] Moss Icon
[ ] Orchid
[ ] Saetia
[ ] Comadre
[ ] Indian Summer
[ ] Joshua Fit For Battle
[ ] Texas is the Reason
[ ] Sunny Day Real Estate
[ ] Hot Cross
[ ] Mineral
[ ] Yaphet Kotto
[ ] Funeral Diner
TOTAL = 0
AMBIENT
[ ] Brian Eno
[ ] Labradford
[ ] Global Communication
[ ] Harold Budd
[ ] Lustmord
[ ] Solaris
[ ] Steve Roach
[ ] Vir Unis
[ ] Gas
[ ] Tangerine Dream
[ ] Delerium
[ ] Stars of the Lid
[ ] Steve Reich
[ ] Fennesz
TOTAL = 0
CHILLOUT
[ ] AIR
[ ] Zero 7
[ ] Thievery Corporation
[ ] Massive Attack
[ ] Royksopp
[ ] Portishead
[ ] Boards of Canada
[ ] Sneaker Pimps
[ ] Frou Frou
[ ] Imogen Heap
[ ] Mandalay
[ ] Carbon Based Lifeforms
TOTAL = 0
INDIE
[ ] The Hush sound
[ ] Death Cab For Cutie
[ ] The Killers
[ ] Elliot Smith
[ ] Yeah Yeah Yeahs
[ ] Belle and Sebastian
[ ] The Postal Service
[ ] Bright Eyes
[ ] Franz Ferdinand
[ ] Modest Mouse
[ ] Cursive
[ ] The Arcade Fire
[ ] The Shins
[ ] The Decemberists
[ ] Sufjan Stevens
[ ] Neutral Milk Hotel
[ ] Iron & Wine
[ ] Clap Your Hands Say Yeah
[ ] Bloc Party
[ ] Minus the Bear
TOTAL = 0
METAL
[ ] Amon Amarth
[x] Dimmu Borgir
[ ] Carcass
[x] Children of Bodom
[ ] Emperor
[ ] Carpathian Forest
[ ] Arcturus
[x] Opeth
[X] Ayreon
[x] Cannibal Corpse
[ ] At The Gates
[ ] Burzum
[ ] Therion
[ ] Mayhem
[ ] Necrophagist
[ ] Darkthrone
[ ] Celtic Frost
[ ] Gorgoroth
[ ] Satyricon
[ ] Death
[ ] Finntroll
[ ] Anaal Nathrakh
[ ] Testament
[ ] Atheist
[ ] Bathory
[ ] Deicide
[X] Slayer
[X] Metallica
TOTAL = 7
METALCORE
[X] As I Lay Dying
[X] Atreyu
[x] Lamb of God
[X] Killswitch Engage
[ ] Unearth
[ ] Throwdown
[ ] Becoming the Archetype
[ ] Between the Buried and Me
[ ] Norma Jean
[ ] Zao
[ ] Converge
[ ] Botch
[ ] Bullet for my Valentine
[ ] Still Remains
[X] Bleeding Through
[x] Trivium
TOTAL = 6
HARDCORE
[ ] Bane
[ ] Looking Forwardx
[ ] Sick of it All
[ ] Madball
[ ] Agnostic Front
[ ] Gorilla Biscuits
[ ] Good Clean Fun
[ ] Donnybrook!
[ ] Champion
[ ] Casey Jones
[ ] Black My Heart
[ ] Hoods
[ ] Minor Threat
[ ] Death Before Dishonor
[ ] The Warriors
[ ] Bishopx
[ ] Too Pure To Die
[ ] Sinking Ships
TOTAL = 0
POST HARDCORE
[ ] Thursday
[ ] At The Drive-In
[ ] The Blood Brothers
[ ] Alexisonfire
[ ] The Fall of Troy
[ ] Glassjaw
[ ] Chiodos
[ ] mewithoutYou
[ ] Drive Like Jehu
[ ] Sparta
[ ] Botch
[ ] Bear Vs. Shark
[ ] These Arms Are Snakes
[ ] Coheed and Cambria
[ ] The Recieving End of Sirens
[ ] He Is Legend
[ ] Scary Kids Scaring Kids
TOTAL = 0
GRINDCORE
[ ] Napalm Death
[ ] Nasum
[X] Pig Destroyer
[ ] Cattle Decapitation
[ ] Agoraphobic Nosebleed
[ ] Cephalic Carnage
[ ] Anal Cunt
[ ] Fuck...I'm Dead
[ ] Ed Gein
[ ] The Number 12 Looks Like You
[ ] Discordance Axis
[ ] Aborted
[ ] Assück
[ ] Job For A Cowboy
[ ] Ion Dissonance
[ ] Genghis Tron
[ ] Cryptopsy
[ ] Dying Fetus
[ ] The Locust
TOTAL = 1
DOOM/SLUDGE/EXPERIMENTAL
[ ] Neurosis
[ ] Sunn O
[ ] Oxbow
[ ] Red Sparowes
[ ] Swans
[ ] Pelican
[ ] Isis
[ ] Zeni Geva
[ ] Cult of Luna
[ ] Today Is The Day
[ ] Godspeed You! Black Emperor
[ ] Crash Worship
[ ] Explosions In The Sky
[ ] Grails
[ ] Culper Ring
[ ] Tribes of Neurot
TOTAL = 0
POWERPOP
[ ] Hellogoodbye
[ ] The All-American Rejects
[ ] Fountains of Wayne
[ ] Head Automatica
[x] Weezer
[ ] Panic! At the Disco
[ ] Jellyfish
[ ] Teenage Fanclub
[ ] The Lashes
[ ] The Lost Patrol Band
[ ] The Click Five
[ ] Cute is What We Aim For
[ ] Wilco
[ ] The Exploding Hearts
Total = 1
PUNK
[x] Rancid
[ ] NOFX
[ ] Bad Religion
[x] Misfits
[ ] Anti-Flag
[X] Sex Pistols
[ ] Alkaline Trio
[ ] Dropkick Murphys
[ ] Pennywise
[ ] Millencolin
[ ] Operation Ivy
[ ] Descendents
[ ] Dead Kennedys
[ ] AFI
TOTAL = 3
POP PUNK
[X] blink-182
[x] Green Day
[ ] New Found Glory
[ ] Good Charlotte
[ ] Relient K
[x] Sum 41
[ ] The Ataris
[ ] The Starting Line
[ ] Simple Plan
[x] The Offspring
[ ] Lagwagon
[X] Box Car Racer
[ ] Motion City Soundtrack
TOTAL = 5
STREET PUNK
[ ] The Unseen
[ ] The Casualties
[ ] GBH
[ ] The Varukers
[ ] Cock Sparrer
[ ] The Virus
[ ] The Exploited
[ ] Sham 69
[ ] Lower Class Brats
[ ] Clit 45
[ ] U.S. Bombs
[ ] Leftover Crack
[X] Subhumans
[ ] Anti-Nowhere League
TOTAL = 1
CRUST PUNK
[ ] Amebix
[ ] Aus-Rotten
[ ] His Hero Is Gone
[ ] Nausea
[ ] Crass
[ ] From Ashes Rise
[ ] Skitsystem
[ ] Rudimentary Peni
[ ] Extreme Noise Terror
[ ] Tragedy
[ ] Wolfbrigade
[ ] Anti-Product
[ ] Behind Enemy Lines
TOTAL = 0
RAP
[ ] Ying Yang Twins
[ ] Bubba Sparxxx
[ ] Paul Wall
[ ] Jay-Z
[ ] Nas
[ ] DMX
[ ] Ice Cube
[ ] Tupac Shakur
[ ] Jamie Foxx
[ ] Cypress Hill
[ ] Ludacris
[ ] Lil Jon
[ ] Eminem
[ ] 50 Cent
[ ] Kanye west
[ ] Bow Wow
[ ] Wu Tang Clan
TOTAL = 0
HIP-HOP
[ ] Dilated Peoples
[ ] Mos Def
[ ] Atmosphere
[ ] Sage Francis
[ ] Talib Kweli
[ ] Aesop Rock
[ ] Blackalicious
[ ] Souls of Mischief
[ ] MF DOOM
[ ] Jurassic 5
[ ] Jedi Mind Tricks
[ ] Common
[ ] Gangstarr
[ ] A Tribe Called Quest
[ ] Ghostface Killa
[ ] Pete Rock
[ ] De La Soul
[ ] Necro
[ ] Immortal Technique
[ ] Ill Bill
TOTAL = 0
SKA
[ ] Streetlight Manifesto
[ ] The Mighty Mighty Bosstones
[ ] Big D and The Kids Table
[ ] The Toasters
[ ] Goldfinger
[ ] The Aquabats
[ ] Reel Big Fish
[ ] Fortunado
[ ] Skankin' Pickle
[ ] Madness
[ ] The Skatalites
[ ] Voodoo Glowskulls
[ ] Five Iron Frenzy
[ ] Tip The Van
[ ] Stealing From Peter
[ ] The Specials
[ ] Catch 22
TOTAL = 0
CLASSIC ROCK
[X ] The Doors
[ ] The Beatles
[ ] The Rolling Stones
[ ] The Clash
[X] The Who
[X] Aerosmith
[X] Black Sabbath
[ ] The Kinks
[X] Kiss
[x] The Ramones
[X] Pink Floyd
[X] Led Zepplin
[ ] Heart
[X] Guns N Roses
[X] Jimi Hendrix
[ ] Tom Petty
TOTAL = 10
90's ALTERNATIVE
[ ] Sublime
[ ] Cake
[ ] Spin Doctors
[x] Smashing Pumpkins
[ ] Gin Blossoms
[X] Alice In Chains
[X] Soundgarden
[ ] Toad the Wet Sprocket
[ ] 311
[ ] Live
[X] Bush
[ ] Third Eye Blind
[ ] Goo Goo dolls
[X] Barenaked Ladies
[ ] Counting Crows
[ ] No Doubt
[x] Nirvana
TOTAL = 6
INDUSTRIAL
[X] KMFDM
[X] Ministry
[ ] Nine Inch Nails
[ ] Laibach
[ ] Einstürzende Neubauten
[ ] Skinny Puppy
[ ] Front Line Assembly
[ ] VNV Nation
[ ] Crossbreed
[x] :wumpscut:
[ ] Throbbing Gristle
[ ] Hocico
[ ] Combichrist
[ ] Assemblage 23
[ ] Front 242
[ ] Funker Vogt
[ ] Psyclon 9
[ ] Suicide Commando
[ ] Grendel
[ ] Nitzer Ebb
[ ] Haujobb
[ ] The Birthday Massacre
[ ] Mortiis
TOTAL = 3
ELECTROCLASH
[ ] Ladytron
[x] Fischerspooner
[ ] Peaches
[ ] ADULT
[ ] Freezepop
[x] Daft Punk
[ ] Goldfrapp
[ ] Shiny Toy Guns
[ ] Clear Static
[ ] The Faint
[ ] The Knife
[ ] She Wants Revenge
[ ] Chicks on Speed
[ ] LCD Soundsystem
[ ] Dirty Sanchez
[ ] Le Tigre
TOTAL = 2
ELECTRONICA
[ ] The Chemical Brothers
[x] Prodigy
[ ] Moby
[ ] The Crystal Method
[ ] Aphex Twin
[ ] Basement Jaxx
[ ] Juno Reactor
[ ] Amon Tobin
[ ] Orbital
[ ] Paul Oakenfold
[ ] Unkle
[ ] Tricky
[ ] Benny Benassi
[ ] Photek
[ ] Roni Size
[ ] LTJ Bukem
[ ] Boom Bip
TOTAL = 1
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| 07:38pm 17/06/2006 |
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mood:  sore foot music: Godsmack - Spiral
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So, just curious... anyone else have a jeep park on their foot?
P.S. going to Godsmack |
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